(My husband a few, several, years ago:-)
I really don’t like to talk about my personal, personal, life too much, but sometimes, I just cannot stand it! You ever feel like you’re knee deep?(AkA, reason for the picture!)And feel like there’s no way out? Well, it seems my life has been somewhat of a snowball effect. We are just now getting to the point to where we can barely see above the water line, know what I mean?
A few years ago, we lived in Florida, born and raised, had a nice house, nothing fancy. Husband was working two jobs, and I was working mine, yes school bus driver. We had a house, although, it seemed the only time we were home to enjoy it, was for dinner, and then bed! Even on the weekends. I was always cleaning house! Which I didn’t mind, because it was ours! Well, my husbands second job went under, and with all the extras we had, four wheelers, car, bike payments, house payments, etc…, we found ourselves at a crossroad! We could either try to unbury ourselves, or start over from scratch, somewhere else.
After many, many, long discussions, we finally decided to take the plunge and do something totally out of the box! We moved! To Missouri no doubt! Family was shocked, but we didn’t care! We needed a fresh, new start at life! Or so we thought! It was a fifteen hour trip up there! We had our own place, double wide on fifteen acres! It was awesome. Then husband lost his disability check, and we had to decide, go back to Florida, or find something to rent here in Missouri? Nobody wanted to leave, so we found a really small apartment! Omg! It was small! I really miss the fifteen acres! And the quiet that surrounds them!
To make a real long story short, we couldn’t find jobs, well, we kinda did. I worked myself to death, literally at the local wal mart! Working nights, while he was a trucker, so I could be home during the day. Well, being a small town, you have a whole lot of merchandise to put up with very little workers! I ran myself ragged trying to keep up, and was failing miserably! Husband tried over the road trucking for a while, and hated it. It was very unstable work. More off time than actually working. Plus, on top of that, I found out my mom was, well, dying. She died last July. Still hard to believe.
Soooo… we all decided to unfortunately come back to Florida. We all hated the idea of coming back, because we had nowhere else to go but to the mother n laws house. And trust me! It has been one nightmare after the other! But, on the plus side? We both found jobs, husband is working two, on his two days off from the main job. Then the mil, decided she had to go back to work, and guess where?! Yep! Same freaking place I work at, driving school busses! I loved the job, because it was the one place I could go to get away from her!
Even though, driving a school bus, isn’t for the faint of heart! It was my only escape from her, and oddly, I love the insane of driving a school bus! When I’m at work, that’s all I think about! Trust me! That’s all you have time to think about! I have twenty five to thirty senior high kids, about 40 elementary kids, and 40 middle school kids! And my elementary give me a run for my money! But I love it!
Most of the time, this is how I feel during the year! I’m sure we’ve all been there! On the plus side, we have started looking for houses! YaY!! We of course have to wait until next tax time to be able to do anything. It just seems when it rains it pours sometimes, you know?! I don’t mean to whine, but some days are way better than others.
If I had any words of wisdom for anyone thinking of moving in with any kind of family member, it would be to not to! There is way too much drama, too much family stuff that never seems to end. You don’t have control of anything. We are just buying our time until we can get some kind of house next year! I never thought the time would come! And trust me! I will never again take advantage of having our own space and being able to come and go without having to answer to anybody!